Reaction to Wyat...

Many days like that. Less now than when I first started…I don’t think it gets easier; I think you just become less surprised by the emotional let down. The first time this happened to me (at Roosevelt) my teacher mentor sent me a note…I still have it somewhere…

I found the note and put it in your box; just return it when you are done. I remember my initial reaction was to withdraw; to try not to care about other kids as much as I had about Jimmy. Avoid any further hurt. But, Curtis, you are too important to these kids! Who gets the email from the kid in California going on his first World Tour? I emailed him back, but just think about the fact that the one person he wanted to share it with was his high school English teacherJ

Just so glad you are here; hopefully, you will feel that way again in just a few days>

Nance

-----Original Message-----
From: Romey, Curtis
Sent: Tuesday, February 07, 2006 9:55 AM
To: Reagan, Nancey
Subject: hey...

I don’t know how I feel about all of this. I’m not angry at him (or at the school, like I thought I might be). I just feel sad. Sad for him, sad for his mom.

Maybe this is one of those mistakes that will help make his future better.

Do you have days that you just don’t get your job?

CR

"Think, Know, Choose, Do" --Ender's Shadow

Wyat and HM...cont.

My head hurts.

Wyat was dismissed today. It appears he has been duping us for a while and much of what he has told us wasn't true.

What do I learn from this? I'm to naive? I need to be less vulnerable? I dont' know....I honestly don't want to think about it.

My conference with HM went amazingly well. He is interested in me helping out...I have already talked with Margie about what I can do to help. We will see.....

And now for something different

Margie and I talked--She loves my idea...but even more important I talked to HM about it 2 weeks ago and he is all about changing the state of the school and shaking things up. I needed to hear both he and Margie say that b/c I was ready to think McKeel was no better than any other high school.

Margie said, again, that she thinks I should start thinking administration. So...tomorrow I'm goign to talk to HM about more responsibility within curriculum (aka helping Margie).

I'll follow up on his response.....

Wyat

So the question I keep asking myself is "When do I stop caring?" I know the answer is never, though I see other people (or at least I think I see them) giving up. I can't give up on him b/c I have invested my heart into him. As cheesy and "torch of education" as that sounds, it is true. I see my own boys in him and I treat him as I would want someone to treat my son.

Wyat is on the verge of being dismissed, but yet people are still fighting for him. That makes me happy. Well, fighting for him isn't the right word. The ball is completely in his court. It is his decision to want to be here. He has missed so much school and his grades are so bad that he has to pull himself out of it.

I think they are pulling internship from him. As much as I believed before that was a bad idea, I think it is a good idea now. He needs to be here--or at least he needs to give the appearance of being here to appease the powers that be.

The underlying question is why I care so much for him. As I said, I see my own sons in him. But why him and not Brian Vandersteen, Vaughn Stewart, Chris Furman (Though I think I had begun caring about Chris...). Even not just specifically for him, but why do I care period? What is it and Wyat of all people?! He knows what to say, he has the puppy dog eyes, he is apologetic and grateful, etc. etc. etc....but yet I can't give up on him.

Sigh...Not a good day. I just hope he gets his act together. We all want him to. I hope he knows how much we do care for him.